Welcome
Welcome to Crsfd.net, My Personal Website!
Well, I’m not sure how I would have liked to start this blog off. None of the content is finished, I’ve been trying to figure out how to approach my visitors, and Im not even sure if people even go to sites for content anymore. I’m still debating, because I know I do not feel like going through the typing and screen capping every image to make tutorials. Nor do I feel like using Camtasia because it runs slow every time I attempt to record while designing.
MY LIFE has been going in zig zag directions. One minute it seems like life could not get any better, then the next it seems as though life it self could not get worser for me. I’ve been dealing with almost having 2 family member’s die on the same day, and that really hurt me the most. These are family member’s whom I see every day, whom I am very close to. I’ve cried so much in life, I often ask how can I continue to cry. There are time’s where I feel like there are no more tears left in me. So when it did happen, I can say I’ve cried for one minute. I tried to be strong because everyone around me was crying. I knew I did the right thing for my cousin, because I was the only one woke, I woke up everyone in the house and then dialed 911. Now mind you, I do not want to share the story, but at first I thought he was dead in his car so this 911 lady is asking me a million and one questions like; “How old is he?, Where is he at?, Are you with him right now ma’am?” Just stupid questions, and I’m like please my cousin is dying over here and you are worried about how old he is?, is you serious. I can say about 14 police cars came, some in un marked. It was a very crazy day and night for me, because earlier that night I drove to Columbus and then when I heard about my auntie, had to drive all the way back to Cleveland
LOVE LIFE: I have been dealing with this man boy that I’ve known for ever. To sum it up, we had known each other for about 8 years before we’ve actually started dating. We stopped talking and I admit the hardest thing was being able to move on from someone you’ve loved truly. Everyone I’ve talked too, I felt like I was cheating on him. I was fully able to move on with my life and other relationships more comfortable about 2 months after. My heart was healed and I was enjoying life just being on my own. So now here he comes 8 month’s later talking about he still loves me and etc. My thing is why do it take you so long to realize you love someone. He see’s that I am doing fine and here he comes trying to ruin my happiness. I really wanted to tell him no, but I am trying to be a much nice person, so I told him I’d think about it. Which I knew I was not going to do, so here goes 6 days later, he’s sending me messages like Why the fuck you dont call me, I’m not going to keep begging you!!! First, no one told you to beg me, I do not see one way how he was begging me. I can not continue to move on with my life is every time I move 5 steps forward people try to bring me 50 feet backwards. Which leads to me going back to the way I was and no. Life is about moving forward and not looking backwards.
Other then that I have been chilling with some friend’s whom I knew back from grade school. One of my friend’s he such a sweetheart, I used to have a crush on him back in middle school until we went separate ways in high school. We have similar morals in life, which I think is cool, but I am not tripping over it what ever happens; happens.
